ode to him~

he came yesterday. it was really nice seeing him.. after..like 2 years :)

he said that he does not want to be alone during valentines day.

we are both really different people now.

there are a lot of things that i would like to ask or say.. instead.. i let him do most of the talking. i miss hearing him talk. i did not even recognise his voice when he called.

he apologised, but i realise that i have forgiven him a loooong time ago.

and there was a moment of epiphany, i never gave my heart away. its just that he has a special place in it.

current tune: little by little- oasis

life is unforgiving

on the way back to college last weekend, daddy and i talk about how life is unforgiving. we analyzed some events which happened in the life of our family, including mine.

i realise i've made several mistakes, made several choices which i regret till today.

i regret accepting bnm's scholarship. the high demands, the stress, the thought of being bonded for a decade, the end of my debating career. however, i am thankful that i am in this college. i get free guitar lessons, meet great people, realise who are my true friends and most importantly, daddy gets to retire early as he no longer has to pay my tuition fees.

i regret not studying biology at a-level. it is the only subject that i enjoyed learning in high school. however, literature is not that bad.

i regret for not taking my piano lessons seriously. i regret for not protesting when mom decided to gave the piano away. owh well,at least i can still read music thanks to the strict music teacher is seri puteri.


and


i regret giving my heart away


well, life is a one way road. you can glance at the rear view mirror but u can never make a u turn.